Exam

It’s the exam period now so lets talk about exams. I’ve been through this topic in my old blog but that doesn’t affect this post. During this examination period I’ve been much more free than usual. Sure, some time is needed to be put on studies but how long can you study in one day? There’s a limit is there not? Well, I only can take maybe 4 hours per day maximum. Together with the fact that I study at night, I have the whole day to relax. By night I mean after 11.

I’m very relaxed during exam period. Well, first of all a relaxed mind is better both in studying and doing the exam. Secondly, there’s no purpose for me to be stressed up. I didn’t study the last few months. I could’ve done continuous studying and be the top few students in school but I didn’t. It’s a matter of choice what results you want to get. Anyone can score and get good results. It’s just whether you’re willing to put in the effort needed.

Tomorrow is Chemistry test. I’m fairly well with practical stuff but without remembering all the stupid things that needs to be, most of it are useless. Up till now it’s my choice not to get good results in Chemistry. Never regret on what you’ve done and what you did not do. So I’ll accept that I can’t score for Chemistry and just do and see how far I can reach with studying in the next few hours.

People who did study but say they never study sure die like Zhi Yang. SHUT UP WEI. I understand one should be humble at times but dude, this is too much wei. This is totally related and I'll end here.

Results only come with effort.

Yu

Intelligent

Intelligent, I’ve been called that. So have I been called stupid, blur, average, smart, genius as well as god. Of course the god one is just a joke but well all the others are not. In the case of stupid, I believe almost everyone has done stupid things in their lives right? There’s always times where one tends to be stupid and does stupid thinks. There’s always time one tends to let go of some stuff from thinking and for me that goes for half of the time.

I’m definitely blur at many times. It’s just because I’m lack of self-confidence plus I’m afraid that I do wrong. Average, one can never be good in everything right? Of course there are areas where you got to be average or even below average which in my case knowledge and language. I’ve been called intelligent for being able to obtain good result even not studying much(Maybe 3-6 hours 1 subject). As for smart, well I don’t know there are many people who see that or just some but I won’t say why. I don’t think there’s a need.

In the genius case, well there are people saying I am. With that of course I won’t leave out the very prestigious high IQ society, Mensa Society which has a branch in Malaysia, Malaysian Mensa Society. Somehow many students don’t know this society. Only a few that actually knows a lot does.

Congratulations! It is our pleasure to inform you that you have obtained a test score of 180 on the Ravens Advanced Progressive Matrices Scale. This score places you at the 98^th percentile for individuals in the normative (standardisation) group, which also qualifies you to join the Malaysian Mensa Society......

That's what written in the letter sent to me after I took the test. The only reason I didn't scan the paper is because I've got no scanner. 180 is the maximum score and 98^th percentile means the top two percent. But then, till the end. I still doubt I'm a genius. I only believe I'm gifted but whether I am or not I don't think it really matters. It doesn't change my dreams and aims. However bad people criticize you shouldn't matter. Everyone has their own talent. Never is a person born useless. Believe in yourself and strive for your

School

Most students have their lives revolving around their school and that includes me. The people they know, the events that happen, the happy and sad memories they have, most of it are from the school. Of course not forgetting problems which are unwanted but people still have and create them.

It’s a great place where went do stupid things when we’re really bored. For example something like a Chi Gu Pah Challenge.

But then we felt it's not enough playing singles games and went on to the game of doubles.

But it was still boring. What else can we do? Since we're in the lab lets get some chemicals. And so,

No we're not crazy enough to drink it. We're just smelling them.
Before going home our 2nd place singles winner and 1st place doubles winner Mr. Fong Kah Ken requested for his photo and so here it is.

Going on, my phone got stolen by some fella in school as well. I only owned it for a few weeks and it's gone. I was going to investigate but well, I'll let it go. I won't get any evidence anyway, I don't have what I need to investigate. But if I find out who did this, I don't think I need to elaborate on that. Unless of course the fella give me back my phone or pay me back for my phone then I'll let him/her go. Of course if I catch the fella in action then....

And on I'll go to the very popular love. Can student love actually be true? That is a question many people ask and wonder. Well, I believe it depends on the person and not how old a person is but who am I to say anything? I'm just a student myself and I have never had a girlfriend.
I've seen many getting together and breaking ups from people around me as if it's a natural process. Well, I personally hope my 1st to be my very last and I believe it's possible even if it start from student life.

Many times guys worry very much about girls during school days. Girls I don't know so I won't give any comment on that. I've had my mind troubled by girls as well but now I realize, why worry? Well, I will still go for girls if I'm sure of my feelings. I don't now so I won't but well who knows when I will? For the issue of love, I would say what I told Thomas, just do what your heart tells you to. And once again, I'm nobody to say anything.

This post is quite meaningless actually, will have update again soon. Definitely won't abandon this blog again.

Time

Once again I left my blog alone for a month. Reason? Well, when I’m emotionally unstable I choose not to blog because there’re too many emotions in me. I mean, if I were to blog I can’t decide what emotion to write with. Every post I write with my heart so there’s emotion within them and writing when having confusion of emotion will just cause the post to have confusion as well.

As this month goes by I felt some changes in myself somehow. Minor or major, I don’t know but I know it is changes I want. As time go by many things changes whether you like it or not. That’s how life is, it revolves with the world. I think it’s time I start being serious on things now. It’s time to switch off my lazy mode and turn on my hardcore mode. It’s time for the hibernated 101% to come out.

As time continue going by I hope I’ll continue to change as well and get to where I want to be. One’s rising can begin anywhere and it feels like this is the time for me. I’ve been down on something and I hope I won’t be anymore.

I hope it’s all true this time.

YU

Looking Back

Have you ever tried looking back to the start of your life until now? Have you ever thought what if something were to never have happened or never have appeared in you life? Well, I have numerous times and there happens to be a lot of people who happen to be really important in my life. The people who without I would’ve just been quite a useless person.

People who revolve around your life, even a person who told you only one statement could be very important in your life. Just one statement could make a very big impact in a person’s life. I’m glad that these people are in my life. I couldn’t imagine what I could have been without these people.

My grandparents, although one of them left me few years back, they’ve been really kind to me. They thought me a lot on their life stories and also passed down the kind heart to me.

My parents, how can I be here without them right? Well, my dad thought me a lot on his lectures. He’s a man who reasons and I respect him for that.

My brothers, without them I wouldn’t have done anything to improve my physical fitness. They guided me through my early stages of life. Fights are inevitable among brothers but in the end we’re still brothers who support each other even though we don’t show it.

Terrence Goh, my oldest friend. It’s been 12 or 13 years since we’ve known each other. Without him I’d just be an ordinary quiet student in my primary days. Following him has allowed me to not stay in the corners unnoticed. Though we aren’t that close anymore, he’s still a good friend of mine.

Teng Han Liang, we don’t go that far back compared to Terrence but we still go quite a while back. We go like 7-8 years back. I used to stay behind him in many things. He’s one of those who were noticed and having posts in many things while I was just some ordinary guy nobody knows. So all the while I was like being his assistant and get a bit noticed as well. Besides that, we shared ups and downs together

Lee Jun Hsien, we don’t go way back it’s just 3-4 years. I don’t recall us sharing ups and downs but instead he’s been helping me in my down times. He’s a real good friend of mine.

Chew Chien Loong, Lim Chong Sheng, Jerrard Leong, Kong Zhuo Li, and Jun Hsien. Our moments together as the school volleyball team this 3 years were priceless. We’re always buddies man. Other volleyballer, though we don’t go that far back, It’s still priceless our days training together and through MSSD.

Lee Kin Meng, Ong Dao Shen and Khor Zhi Yang. These 2 years in Ixora we’ve build up our friendship. Now we’re like 4 buddies in the corner. Especially Dao Shen who’s beside me, our thinking is like so similar. We’re definitely real buddies.

Caely See Yen Boon, she’s the only female who I’m actually writing. We’ve never been buddies in fact now I don’t know what are we. During my form 3 year I actually stopped my scouting activities but during form 4 years I actually followed her back into scouts. End up I found things that make me want to stay. I really have to thank her for that. Though the time we were actually friends who hangs out with each other was only a few months, those were great moments. I do hope we could be like last time but I guess it’s not possible but then I really hope we could at least be real friends. I know I always will take you as 1.

My other friends I could not possibly write all of you but well, all of my friends are important for me. Thank you I would like to say to all my friends and all those I wrote above. Without you all, I’m nothing.

YU

Changed - Have I?

This blog has been left alone for a month now. It’s not because I’m busy although I have been busy in the past month. So basically what made me stop writing for a month? It’s the many things going through my mind as things happened. I haven’t been feeling right these days. To be honest I’m kind of lost. I’ve always tried to view far, look at the far end of things but I tend to forget what’s near. I try to be someone in the future but now, in the process what have I become?

I am a person lacking of self-confidence very much. I try to change that or at least appear to others as not but I’ve lost myself. I became arrogant. I didn’t realize that, I thought I only gained a little arrogance but didn’t realize it grew in time. Maybe people do see me as more confident but with the prize of having arrogance which causes dislike on people? I don’t want that.

I’ve been reviewing myself on ability too much that I’ve forgotten my personality. I’ve been to full of every ability of mine. That can’t happen and I won’t let it happen anymore. But however, I need help. I need to know what has gone wrong with me or what is always wrong with me, my personality. Just honestly tell me, I don’t mind bad comments. I just wish to know, that’s all. Thank you.

Damian

Hate

What makes a person gets hated? What makes a person gets disliked? Many reasons can actually cause so. Usual points would be bad personalities, annoying and disrespectful words or actions. Of course, as I said this is usual points not all the points. There are numerous reasons for one to get hated or disliked. I wish to know why would I get hated or disliked as well. At least I know where people think I have problem in.

To be hated by a stranger I would feel slight discomfort but to be hated by a friend or someone closer that would really be painful. I wish to know what the reason but I wish more that the hate could be gone. To feel pain is never a good thing and to cause it is never as well. If it causes more than that but also things like inconvenience and all, the more the reason to get it settled.

Peace
Damian Leong