Love?

SPM is not over. That’s something everyone should be aware of. No matter you’re an accounts student or not, it’s not over yet. Do you feel a feeling of relief yet something seems to be stuck there? It’s not over yet that’s why. There’s still a part of you telling yourself, it’s not over yet. Another case of feeling it is that you already felt it’s over before the day. Due to the fact your last test is EST you’re not feeling as good as you expect to be. The relief came before it ended. That’s how it is. Now without further delay, I shall write the essay with the title my perfect future husband or wife as I’ve promised. In my case it’s my perfect future wife of course. And now, my essay commences.

Women and men, both are categorized as the species of human. There’s a known fact the women will never understand man and the same goes the other way yet they still wish to get together and spend their lives together. This is of course with the exception of homosexuals where the same sex gets together. The ritual where the two people get together would be what we humans call marriage. As we go through that ritual, we gain a wife or husband where we are supposed to be spending our lives together. In my case, it would be a wife. Then it comes to the question of a perfect wife. There are a few points that would make my future wife my perfect future wife

Firstly are characteristic that would be needed for my perfect future wife. To people who would say looks doesn’t matter, stop lying to yourself. Look does matter to a certain extent. You’re definitely going to have trouble facing someone whose looks displeases you for your life. My future wife doesn’t need to be very pretty. She doesn’t have to have a great body. She doesn’t need to be sexy. She just has to be pleasant looking to me. For body, I have to be honest anything less than fat would be alright for me. Chubby or round are not counted fat. Looks does matter, but it’s not that important as long as it’s within the range of acceptance.

Personality would be a very common point to be considered. For me, personalities are criteria we must take into consideration. For me, a perfect wife has to be a person who cares for people. A person with kindness in their heart is sufficient. I don’t require a wife who is gentle or anything like that. I require a wife who is kind and cares for other people. Whether she is gentle, rough or anything it doesn’t really matter that much. As long as she is a kind person, it’s enough.

Ability and skill is probably the least of my concern. It’s alright for her so have no special skill. It’s alright for her to not be successful at all. It’s also alright for her to have more abilities and skills compared to me. I don’t really mind. It’ll be perfect if she’s someone smart I would say. I would prefer a wife who is smart. Capable or not doesn’t really matter but smart would be perfect. It’s not a necessary thing though. It’s just something I would prefer to have.

The most important point for my perfect future wife is neither of those I wrote before. The most important point of all is that both of us love the true nature of each other. If I love her and she doesn’t really love me or the other way around, it wouldn’t be alright. Love needs to be from both sides. Love cannot be on the acting of a person. The love that exists must be upon the natural points of a person. Love cannot retain by pretending.

To have a perfect future husband or wife is of course the ideal thing for everyone but most of the time it just never happens. For me, my future wife doesn’t have to be perfect. The most important thing is the last point written in my essay. Both of us have to love each other. I believe one day I will find the fated girl whom I will spend the rest of my life with.

That’s the end of my essay. I would say it’s not a very good essay personally but I would say it’s a very true essay. It doesn’t only apply on wife, it applies on girlfriend too. Well, not that I’ve had any before. Next post will be coming up soon. It’ll be about the point on me and girls. Interested or not, just come back and have a look.

Love is what matters in the end.

Stars

Since it’s SPM season lets talk about SPM stuff. In my SPM English paper 1 there were 5 questions and there were 3 that caught my eye. The 3 questions were:

1. My perfect future husband or wife
2. Write a story ending with: “…Now I realize the value of a true friend.”
3. Stars

All 3 of them were essay titles I can write about but I stopped and think. I wanted to write a story as an essay at that time. I chose the 2nd one in the end. To rewrite my essay is quite a stupid thing to do so I’ll summarize my story.

It starts with me talking about my high school life where I have numerous friends and even until the beginning of my working life I still have these friends. One day I had tumor and need help financially for operation but all my friends backed away. They avoided me and refuse to answer my calls. I began to feel depression and rage. That changed my whole personality to a bad personality. Soon later I was banged by a lorry and went to the hospital. As a result I had my legs amputated. I reflect back on the words of an old friend in the hospital. The old friend suddenly appeared and I broke into tears. He helped me back up. I had operation and prosthetic legs then I was able to stand up again. And that’s when I realize the value of a true friend.

Such a dramatic essay isn’t it. Now let us start on my unwritten 2 essays. I’ll start with the 3rd one, stars.

Stars, the little dots of light twinkling in the sky at night. Stars play many roles towards the life of a person. One very significant role it plays is the Sun. The sun is one of the many stars we see although it appears very differently compared to the little dots we see of the other stars. However we cannot deny the fact that it is also a star. The sun provides light, energy and heat to the world. It makes our world inhabitable for organic life forms. Without this 1 star, we will not even exist. But all these are not what make stars as interesting as I feel it is. What I find most interesting about stars are the many myths behind it.

Many magical stories are told about stars. All of them are considered to be non-logical stories but still these stories are believed by many people. One of the favourite one is the transformation of your deceased loved ones into a star, a star that will brightly shine and protect you from high above. Many people choose to believe this story. It doesn’t sounds true at all but many people still believe or at least try to believe it. To see the death of people you care for is really painful. To believe this story is to get a comfort in your heart that even after death they will stay and watch over you as a star.

Another one would be the all time favourite wishing star. People will very naturally make a wish when they see a shooting star. A person is considered lucky to be able to see a shooting star as it is not a common thing and thus wishes at that time will have higher chance to be granted. This is one of the explanations given on this believe but of course this does not apply at all times. Many people also believe that the shooting star has some magic that can grant your wishes. However, no matter what is the explanation given, people choose to believe it is true. Wishing star is like a form of hope given when things seem bad.

People choose to believe to believe these unbelievable things about stars as stars are really a very big mystery to us. We see countless stars in the sky some brightly shining and some very dim but all we see are just dots. How do the stars actually look like? How did the stars come about? How are the stars able to shine so brightly? It is still pretty much a mystery to us. Not only is it a mystery but it is a very powerful thing to be able to emit its own bright light.

Believing the stories actually does help a person. To believe would make one able to accept unacceptable things and have hope when the world seemed to be pitch black. Psychologically a person would be able to do better with such believe. Whether or not the stories are true, it helps people one way or another. To believe or not to believe in these magic about the stars is your choice but stars will always be here waiting for you to believe in them.

The 1 more question will be done later. Think it’s stupid? I think it’s not so I don’t really care.

Stars, an eternal symbol of hope.

SPM

SPM is in a few hours and I’m still here writing out this post. I’m sure some people are going to think that I must be over confident or something. I can tell you I’m not at all. I’m not nervous as well. I know very well I can’t get straight As and I even have the chance to fail a subject or two. I’m also very well aware that it might cause a little trouble for me in the future but I’m not worried at all still.

Exam results never will determine where someone will stand in the future. Exam results only determine where a person’s starting point would be. That’s right we’re not even at the starting point yet. We’re only trying to get a good starting point at this stage of life. I’m very well aware that where I start will not determine where I’ll end. That is why I’m not scared at all.

After this exam my life will go to the next phase of this stage of life. The phase called college life. The phase where there will be different exposures. I’m glad this new phase is coming but there’re many things from the high school phase I wish to maintain. It’s quite a dilemma but life is just going to keep moving and you have to move with it. None can ever dwell in the same phase of life forever. We just got to move on with the flow of life.

Examination results are important because many people need a good start. A good start could give a boost to many people in what they do. For many people, if they don’t get a good start they could never climb their way up. The reason for that to happen is not because of capability, it’s whether one has the will to do it or not. When there’s a will there’s a way. It’s a very famous saying and it’s also almost always true. One never needs to be afraid or be to tensed up on their results. You could still reach where you want.

Exam results only determine where you start

Heart

Today I went for the Terry Fox Run. It’s a run to raise fund for cancer research. Terry Fox was a cancer patient at a very young age. His leg was amputated because of it. Even with his leg amputated he still started to run across Canada (He’s a Canadian) to raise fund for cancer research. Even though he did not manage to finish his journey but he managed to create such awareness that a Terry Fox Run is held every year in many countries across the world.

The reason for the respect people have for him and the reason people’s awareness are raised is because of his heart. His heart to run overcoming the difficulties he faced. Even through his dying days, his heart never broke down but goes stronger. People with great talent or with great skills are called amazing but people with their whole heart on something are even more amazing.

The results we can achieve with our heart in something are amazing. It matches people with great talents. Humans are a very amazing being. We are capable of far more greater things than what we can do now. With your whole heart on something this barrier can be breached. It may not be very deep but you can reach beyond what you normally could. That’s the first lesson learned from this run. Here are some pictures taken from the run.

Me and my bros before the run

Again

2nd brother and me only

That's only half of the people there

Of course there's got to be a picture of me before the run

Running

After the run

That's it.

With and without heart, it makes a lot of difference