Change

Change is a part of everyone’s life. One big stage of change would be when one is 15-18 years old. Changing at this stage is usually good as it is a change as one matures but there are negative points as well. Everyone change in a different way in different things. I shall not go into how it change and all as I’m not knowledgeable in that myself.

Well, change is a process that never ends. In this few years I see a lot of changes in myself. Basically my whole life is on a complete different course than when it was 3 years ago. At the beginning I actually thought my change will bring only good. That was during the beginning of my form 4 life. Everything around just kept changing in both good and bad ways.

People around us naturally change as well. As I said, it’s a part of everyone’s life. The chance is not that great but it can affect friendships as well. Sometimes changes in both parties can change into a pattern of repel against each other. For most people friendships are really important. Definitely it is for me. Trying to maintain would be the best one can do I guess.

However much one changes the base characteristics of the person still remains. People never changes completely, they change based on what they are and what they experience. If only changes only brings good. Wouldn’t that be so great? But then again, life doesn’t stay good. It’s not life if it does isn’t it?

Change, a never ending process.

Yu

Future

Future is a very vast thing to talk about but then for secondary school student usually it would be about what course to take and which university to go to after their secondary life. This goes especially for form 5 students. I’ve thought a lot on it last year and I’ve planned for my studying life with backup plans just incase I fail or anything. This year I realized, I never really thought about my current life. I’ve been constantly thinking of my SAM results in college but how about my SPM? I totally neglected my school results so far. I’ve been doing nothing but last minute revision.

I have a dream which sounds unreachable but I believe I can. The dream is to create a formula or an invention which is a level higher from the technology of the time I create it. Think it’s big? Not really, the bigger dream is I hope the creation could bring a renaissance to change the world for good. Dreams are only optional targets though. What’s more important would be aims.

Aims are the main objectives. The targets that we have to achieve if not we fail. Dream big aim high is a good advice but when having your aim high it must be achievable and practical of course. If you aim something you can’t achieve or something stupid then it defeats the purpose of having the aim. My aim is a race against time which is early retirement with a considerably large sum of money. Of course retire doesn’t mean spend money and laze around. I’ll still do investments and research work after retiring. By early I mean in my thirties.

Recently something is a bit wrong with me though. I’ve been feeling in these 17 years I’m nothing. I feel rather useless at the moment. I can’t really find the worth in my self at the current moment and that makes me feel bad. I guess I’ll have to overcome it somehow. That’s it.

Dream big, aim high but not too much like to fly.

Yu

Amazing

Amazing, a word used to describe something or someone doing something exceeding normal capabilities. I shall not talk about things as I doubt anyone would be interested. Actually it’s just because I’m not interested. So I shall go on with amazing people. Everyone is special, everyone is talented but not everyone is amazing. Special and talent are things that people are born with. They are a gifts given to each individual as they step into this world.

Amazing is different. Amazing exists through one’s actions and thoughts. One can be amazing in many different ways. In fact, anyone can be amazing. It’s just a matter of whether you’re willing the put in the sufficient amount of effort to achieve it. Even a super genius will not be amazing if the person does not manipulate his ability to learn and do something.

Everyone have a different aim in life of course. Some aim to be amazing, some aim to be normal. Everyone can be amazing but doesn’t mean everyone has to be amazing. I aim to be amazing, in fact more than amazing. I want to be more than what anyone has ever been. I’m not anywhere near amazing right now but I believe, in 30 years time I will.

Aiming to be amazing doesn’t mean one can neglect the small things and closers things of course. Exams of secondary school level for example. It may be a small thing but at my stage of life, it’s something I must go through well. I’ll be taking my driving license on the 26^th. According to my instructor my progress is better than other students which means most probably I’ll pass. Well, I shall end here.

One is not born amazing, one pursues to be

Exam

It’s the exam period now so lets talk about exams. I’ve been through this topic in my old blog but that doesn’t affect this post. During this examination period I’ve been much more free than usual. Sure, some time is needed to be put on studies but how long can you study in one day? There’s a limit is there not? Well, I only can take maybe 4 hours per day maximum. Together with the fact that I study at night, I have the whole day to relax. By night I mean after 11.

I’m very relaxed during exam period. Well, first of all a relaxed mind is better both in studying and doing the exam. Secondly, there’s no purpose for me to be stressed up. I didn’t study the last few months. I could’ve done continuous studying and be the top few students in school but I didn’t. It’s a matter of choice what results you want to get. Anyone can score and get good results. It’s just whether you’re willing to put in the effort needed.

Tomorrow is Chemistry test. I’m fairly well with practical stuff but without remembering all the stupid things that needs to be, most of it are useless. Up till now it’s my choice not to get good results in Chemistry. Never regret on what you’ve done and what you did not do. So I’ll accept that I can’t score for Chemistry and just do and see how far I can reach with studying in the next few hours.

People who did study but say they never study sure die like Zhi Yang. SHUT UP WEI. I understand one should be humble at times but dude, this is too much wei. This is totally related and I'll end here.

Results only come with effort.

Yu

Intelligent

Intelligent, I’ve been called that. So have I been called stupid, blur, average, smart, genius as well as god. Of course the god one is just a joke but well all the others are not. In the case of stupid, I believe almost everyone has done stupid things in their lives right? There’s always times where one tends to be stupid and does stupid thinks. There’s always time one tends to let go of some stuff from thinking and for me that goes for half of the time.

I’m definitely blur at many times. It’s just because I’m lack of self-confidence plus I’m afraid that I do wrong. Average, one can never be good in everything right? Of course there are areas where you got to be average or even below average which in my case knowledge and language. I’ve been called intelligent for being able to obtain good result even not studying much(Maybe 3-6 hours 1 subject). As for smart, well I don’t know there are many people who see that or just some but I won’t say why. I don’t think there’s a need.

In the genius case, well there are people saying I am. With that of course I won’t leave out the very prestigious high IQ society, Mensa Society which has a branch in Malaysia, Malaysian Mensa Society. Somehow many students don’t know this society. Only a few that actually knows a lot does.

Congratulations! It is our pleasure to inform you that you have obtained a test score of 180 on the Ravens Advanced Progressive Matrices Scale. This score places you at the 98^th percentile for individuals in the normative (standardisation) group, which also qualifies you to join the Malaysian Mensa Society......

That's what written in the letter sent to me after I took the test. The only reason I didn't scan the paper is because I've got no scanner. 180 is the maximum score and 98^th percentile means the top two percent. But then, till the end. I still doubt I'm a genius. I only believe I'm gifted but whether I am or not I don't think it really matters. It doesn't change my dreams and aims. However bad people criticize you shouldn't matter. Everyone has their own talent. Never is a person born useless. Believe in yourself and strive for your

School

Most students have their lives revolving around their school and that includes me. The people they know, the events that happen, the happy and sad memories they have, most of it are from the school. Of course not forgetting problems which are unwanted but people still have and create them.

It’s a great place where went do stupid things when we’re really bored. For example something like a Chi Gu Pah Challenge.

But then we felt it's not enough playing singles games and went on to the game of doubles.

But it was still boring. What else can we do? Since we're in the lab lets get some chemicals. And so,

No we're not crazy enough to drink it. We're just smelling them.
Before going home our 2nd place singles winner and 1st place doubles winner Mr. Fong Kah Ken requested for his photo and so here it is.

Going on, my phone got stolen by some fella in school as well. I only owned it for a few weeks and it's gone. I was going to investigate but well, I'll let it go. I won't get any evidence anyway, I don't have what I need to investigate. But if I find out who did this, I don't think I need to elaborate on that. Unless of course the fella give me back my phone or pay me back for my phone then I'll let him/her go. Of course if I catch the fella in action then....

And on I'll go to the very popular love. Can student love actually be true? That is a question many people ask and wonder. Well, I believe it depends on the person and not how old a person is but who am I to say anything? I'm just a student myself and I have never had a girlfriend.
I've seen many getting together and breaking ups from people around me as if it's a natural process. Well, I personally hope my 1st to be my very last and I believe it's possible even if it start from student life.

Many times guys worry very much about girls during school days. Girls I don't know so I won't give any comment on that. I've had my mind troubled by girls as well but now I realize, why worry? Well, I will still go for girls if I'm sure of my feelings. I don't now so I won't but well who knows when I will? For the issue of love, I would say what I told Thomas, just do what your heart tells you to. And once again, I'm nobody to say anything.

This post is quite meaningless actually, will have update again soon. Definitely won't abandon this blog again.